Getting back to the topic of this post, the DE meta has made me start not-liking this game for the first time in 10 years (with a 3 year break in between). I've sat at my computer, spun up the launcher, and then thought: "The last time I played this, I felt awful.", closed it and decided to do something else. I like how Mukluk phrased the DE meta: It's "nonconsensual raiding".
I don't raid because I don't like the toxicity that comes with it. The most competitive thing I do is T4 Fractals, but even then you meet the occasional toxic person, and I don't want that in my life. So, I've consigned myself to the fact that I'll never have legendary armor or the legendary ring or anything else locked behind raids, and that's fine.
I don't consider myself a good player, I'm decidedly average. I play an alac mirage in the open world because it’s fun. I like helping people out. I like the little messages of "ty" when I rez someone, and I especially like helping people with jumping puzzles. I LOVE jumping puzzles. I like teaching people how to do it, and portaling them to the top if they can't. If I pass a jumping puzzle out in the world, I will often stop and do it, not because of the rewards, but because I honestly enjoy it.
After trying and failing this meta 6 times, I’m exhausted and demoralized, only to be greeted by a flood of messages telling me to "git good". It's making me bitter about everything else in the game. I'm ashamed to admit that I have thought of getting to the top of a daily JP, seeing people asking for a port from their friendly neighborhood mesmer and just replying: "git good". It's the first thing that springs to mind now when I think about portaling someone. It's made me think that anyone that accepted a mesmer portal to finish their skyscale collection doesn't deserve their skyscale.
This is the first time I've told anyone about these thoughts in my head. Does this make me a horrible person? I guess it does. I can say that I started thinking this right around the third time I failed the DE meta. I've all but to written off the Turtle Mount, like I have legendary armor. I don’t know if I will ever do the DE meta again because it makes me feel terrible.
Oh, and the next time you accept a mesmer portal in the open world, know that it might be mine, and stopping to type "ty" means a lot to me.
Getting back to the topic of this post, the DE meta has made me start not-liking this game for the first time in 10 years (with a 3 year break in between). I've sat at my computer, spun up the launcher, and then thought: "The last time I played this, I felt awful.", closed it and decided to do something else. I like how Mukluk phrased the DE meta: It's "nonconsensual raiding". I don't raid because I don't like the toxicity that comes with it. The most competitive thing I do is T4 Fractals, but even then you meet the occasional toxic person, and I don't want that in my life. So, I've consigned myself to the fact that I'll never have legendary armor or the legendary ring or anything else locked behind raids, and that's fine. I don't consider myself a good player, I'm decidedly average. I play an alac mirage in the open world because it’s fun. I like helping people out. I like the little messages of "ty" when I rez someone, and I especially like helping people with jumping puzzles. I LOVE jumping puzzles. I like teaching people how to do it, and portaling them to the top if they can't. If I pass a jumping puzzle out in the world, I will often stop and do it, not because of the rewards, but because I honestly enjoy it. After trying and failing this meta 6 times, I’m exhausted and demoralized, only to be greeted by a flood of messages telling me to "git good". It's making me bitter about everything else in the game. I'm ashamed to admit that I have thought of getting to the top of a daily JP, seeing people asking for a port from their friendly neighborhood mesmer and just replying: "git good". It's the first thing that springs to mind now when I think about portaling someone. It's made me think that anyone that accepted a mesmer portal to finish their skyscale collection doesn't deserve their skyscale. This is the first time I've told anyone about these thoughts in my head. Does this make me a horrible person? I guess it does. I can say that I started thinking this right around the third time I failed the DE meta. I've all but to written off the Turtle Mount, like I have legendary armor. I don’t know if I will ever do the DE meta again because it makes me feel terrible. Oh, and the next time you accept a mesmer portal in the open world, know that it might be mine, and stopping to type "ty" means a lot to me.
